A lot of shit is going on in my life, and it's fucking with my head. I would like to get away from it all, but that will never happen. I wish I could just be a different person, and make everyone around me happy, but I cant, and I'm slowly realizing that. My only escape from life is to go to work, and I dont do enough of that anymore. Second job perhaps? I dont know, I dont like to work, but it's the only place I can go to be free. I hate feeling so fucking emo like this. I hate emo people, and I hate when people just complain on their Xangas, but I guess it feels good to do so.

Hmm. I dont really know how things are going between me and Kayla, it seems as though we argue every 5 fucking minutes. I think it's because I'm really stressed out and constantly in a "Fuck it, life is pointless" mentality (sp?). I dont know what to do anymore.

I'm just gonna get trashed tonight to forget about everything for awhile, and have a nice evening.

Fuck life.

P.S. I'm sorry you had to read my emo rant.

EDIT:

I'm pretty trashed right now, and it's fucking sweet. HAHAHA. Things looked like they were going to be icky, but then I hit the burbon (sp?), so life is better... temporarily.